"Second Star to the Right and Straight on Till Morning"

There are days when the idea of growing up terrifies me, no... correction, it petrifies me. Graduation is right around the corner. The weeks are flying by, it feels like someone has pressed the fast forward button on the remote and I can't seem to find a way to make the weeks slow down. I can't believe that college is coming to an end, I still remember freshman year like it was just yesterday. I have developed a love-hate relationship with school, loving and hating every minute of it and I wouldn't change any second of it. Looking back on my college years I can see that I have grown so much from that scared little freshman. School used to intimidate me so much, and now I walk into school and all my classes confident, with the knowledge that I can take on whatever the professors may throw my way.

Despite this new found confidence in school, I can't seem to find it when it comes to going out into the real world. I still cower, cringe, and shudder at the idea of being done with school and graduating soon. I still sometime wish I could be like peter pan and wendy and fly off to never never land. This idea is fleeting though, it comes and goes, because while the idea of never having to grow up has been romanticized by Disney, I start to really think about it and realize how much I would miss if I spent my whole life running away from life.

Life will happen, whether you want to or not. So I've decided I am going to plant my two feet firmly on the ground and be ready to tackle whatever life throws my way.

Survey Says...

Name: Lourdes Date: 4/9/2009 Colorgenics Number: 20145637

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You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions. (I feel that this is the only paragraph that doesn't really apply)

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

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I was pretty shocked at the fact that the majority of this was right, I thought that it was interesting as well so I decided to post it. Do my choice of colors really say that much about me? Who knows, but it was eerie how much of it was really on the dot.

Be Yourself, FEEL!!

An excerpt from A Poet's Advice by E E Cummings

A lot of people think or believe or know they feel—but that's
thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. And poetry is
feeling—not knowing or believing or thinking.

Almost anybody can learn to think or believe or know, but not a single
human being can be taught to feel. Why? Because whenever you think
or you believe or you know, you're a lot of other people: but the
moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself.

I found Cumming's words interesting because he is so right!! We live in a world that is continuously trying to tell you how to act, what to wear, who to be. The media even defines what is beautiful for us. How do you know who you are if you are constantly told what to be. So today allow yourself to feel and discover who you are.